More Andrew Solomon Love, no matter what

Jim Sinclair, a prominent Autism activist said, “When parents say, ‘I wish my child did not have Autism’ what they’re really saying is ‘I wish the child I have did not exist, and I had a different, non-Autistic child instead.


Read that again. This is what we hear when you mourn over our existence, this is what we hear when you pray for a cure, that your fondest wish for us is that someday we will cease to be, and strangers you can love will move in behind our faces.”

This project is a very emotional one for me. The above quote from Andrew Solomon’s TED Talk “Love, no matter what” reminds me of the struggle I’ve had with my parents and sisters.

A lot of time people who have these conditions are very angry because they feel as though their parents don’t love them, when what actually has happened is that their parents don’t accept them. Love is something that ideally is there unconditionally throughout the relationship between a parent and a child, but acceptance is something that takes time. It always takes time.


As I post this I have just finished watching this TED Talk a second time, and grateful tears stream down my face. I have spent so long grieving for the things that Jenny may never experience, the things that I may never experience. I have spent so long angry at the world for seeing us as the Other. It has taken me this long to realize that it is our Otherness that makes us who we are. We are not broken. We are special.

My sisters and me

My sisters and me


Andrew Solomon: How the worst moments in our lives make us who we are

You need to take the traumas and make them part of who you’ve come to be and you need to fold the worst events of your life into a narrative of triumph, evincing a better self in response to things that hurt.

-Andrew Solomon, How the worst moments in our lives make us who we are

One of the Ted Talks my Psychology professor showed us was by this man, writer Andrew Solomon. It was called, Depression, the secret we share. The book he refers to in this talk is called, Far From the Tree: Parents, Children, and the Search for Identity. You can find it on Amazon in paperback and e-book format. I’ve added Far From the Tree to my own reading list for this project. I’ve added two of his other books (The Noonday Demon: An Atlas of Depression and his most recent book, The Reckoning: Searching for Meaning with the Father of the Sandy Hook Killer) to my own personal reading list.

You can find out more about Andrew Solomon at his website.


TED Talks: Maysoon Zayid, Comic with CP

In Psychology my professor, Heather Richardson, has been showing a lot of Ted Talks. I happened to come across this one with stand-up comedian Maysoon Zayid.

I was so moved by Maysoon’s story. At around 7:43 in the video, Ms. Zayid says, “Hollywood has a sordid history of casting able-bodied actors to play disabled on screen.”

Disability is as visual as race. If a wheelchair-user can’t play Beyonce, then Beyonce can’t play a wheelchair-user. People with disabilities are the largest minority in the world and we are the MOST under-represented in entertainment.

-Maysoon Zayid

This is something Jenny and I struggle with. Jenny loves movies and television, and she experiences the world largely through the screen of her iPad. The walls of her bedroom are covered with her crushes (Leonardo DiCaprio, Josh Hutcherson, Zach Efron and many more).

Siblings of Disabled Kids May Show Emotional Effects

It's not easy to get Jenny to look directly at the camera

It’s not easy to get Jenny to look directly at the camera

This term at Ex’pression I’ve been taking a psychology course, and that combined with my choice to study my family dynamic have really opened my eyes to a lot of new ideas.

It makes sense that non-disabled siblings of disabled children might struggle emotionally, as a lot of the studies I’ve been reading indicate, including this article from HealthDay News.

Me and my sister Jenny (pictured) benefitted a great deal from the addition of a third child to our household, my youngest sister Sarah.

As the article states:

Siblings in larger families where a healthy child has another healthy brother or sister seem to fare better: “If a sibling has another sibling to interact with, they seem to adapt better,” Goudie said.

-Author and assistant professor at the University of Arkansas, Anthony Goudie

Jenny models her Christmas knit cap

Jenny models her Christmas knit cap

Siblings of Disabled Kids May Show Emotional Effects.